Love me for who I am

wickedlittletown · Post by **wickedlittletown** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 3:56 pm

If your going to love me. Love me for who I am.

Love the fact that I don't sleep. This will frustrate you when you want to cuddle and I am running around the house cleaning it at 20 miles an hour. Appreciate the fact I don't dig the drug and alchohal scene, and refused to be seen with it.
Love me, even though I'm a huge nerd and still want to be a princess when I grow up. I may, on occasion, make an obscure reference to Wigu, cat and girl, real life, or homestar runner that you don't understand. Don't humor me. Give me a perplexed look and change the subject.
Love me even when I don't love myself. And when I don't love myself, hide the razor blades and knives and paraphenelia I have hidden under my bed and in the top drawer. Do everything in your power to make me see what you see.
Love me when I'm ugly. All those times I forget What day it is And i havent showered or brushed my teeth. Just slowly get in the shower with me and make me beautiful again. make sure i brush my hair because sometimes I forget, because I act just like a child.
Love my mind. it works in mysterious ways and sometimes it takes a while to understand it. But this is who I am. I want you to love who I am.

edit: typos from tears

Kyllian · Post by **Kyllian** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:00 pm

Ooooo, a homestar fan
or are you a strongbad fan?

wickedlittletown · Post by **wickedlittletown** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:01 pm

Kyllian · Post by **Kyllian** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:19 pm

Heh, got intruiged, read the xanga page, noticed Invader Zim in expertise.
I miss that show

Pout · Post by **Pout** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:20 pm

But this is who I am.

It isn't who you have to be.

I want you to love who I am.

First you must love yourself:

hide the razor blades and knives and paraphenelia I have hidden under my bed and in the top drawer.

I've been through this phase too, there are better ways to get attention. You're being too comfortable with your depression. As Fixer has said in another thread: if to anyone, be a hero to yourself.

wickedlittletown · Post by **wickedlittletown** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:25 pm

im sure that the "better ways to get attention" quote wasn't meant to offend so I will not take it as such unless you correct me

Im not really "comfortable" with my depression. Its more like something that is there. I have panic attacks which make me depressed and I dont like medicatiion.

and Im not really open about cutting to people I know in real life (hehehe "real" real life) so its not an attention grabbng thing. I do want to stop. The reason i mentioned it here is because it seemed like a safe, semi-annonomyous (spelling) way to get things off my chest.

just thought I should explain myself.

is this in the wrong area? I am a noob....

edit: yay for typos

Kyllian · Post by **Kyllian** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:28 pm

Neh, this is rants and raves, you can speak about dam near anything here.
As for the cutting, if you get in the mood to do that, try whittling a piece of wood instead, and don't go for any specific design, just start hacking at it

Rorschach · Post by **Rorschach** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:28 pm

I would say it's the right forum for it wickedlittletown, but you might get more benefit from people PMing you
That's up to them of course, if I thought I could be of any help to you whatsoever then I would but I don't so I won't
Hope you feel better though

wickedlittletown · Post by **wickedlittletown** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:30 pm

Oh man...i have a feeling i did something wrong here.

I wasn't lookiing for people to reply with pity postings or tips or something. It just said rants and raves so i thought i should rant and rave. I may have made a newbie mistake and may have people thinking all i want is pity

I odnt...im not grabbing for attention. Its just something i thought i'd post. If anything, i think its well written

sorry guys

Kyllian · Post by **Kyllian** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:30 pm

Eh, sometimes it can be rather theraputic to just share what's bugging you

Fixer · Post by **Fixer** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:30 pm

Wow... last weekend was a rough weekend for romance. I got dumped. A coworker here got dumped. wickedlittletown either dumped or got dumped... how many others are in the same boat?

wickedlittletown · Post by **wickedlittletown** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:31 pm

no...there was no dump-age.....This is written to everyone. I am very much in love.

wickedlittletown · Post by **wickedlittletown** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:32 pm

P.s.- WHO is that adorable child in your avatar Fixe?

Pout · Post by **Pout** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:34 pm

I do want to stop.

It's hard to communicate this to people, they don't seem to understand, but just stop. Throw away the gear and stop. Realise that it's dumb and stop. That's how I did it. Just stop.

Wow... last weekend was a rough weekend for romance. I got dumped. A coworker here got dumped. wickedlittletown either dumped or got dumped... how many others are in the same boat?

I'm having trouble with temptation. A woman (who isn't my gf) is after my penis again.

Rorschach · Post by **Rorschach** » Mon Nov 17, 2003 4:35 pm

You got dumped Fixer?!
I need to start reading people's journals...
I'm awfully dorry to hear that
/me takes Fixer out for Margaritas

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